Monday, December 3, 2007, 12:40 PM MST [Fun and Humor]
So, since I ranted yesterday, here is something funny today I got from another group Im on:
Jose Cuervo Christmas Cookies:
1 cup of water 1 tsp baking soda 1 cup of sugar 1 tsp salt 1 cup of brown sugar 1 tsp lemon juice 4 large eggs 1 cup nuts 2 cups of dried fruit 1 bottle Jose Cuervo Tequila
Sample the Cuervo to check quality. Take a large bowl, check the Cuervo again, to be sure it is of the highest quality, pour one level cup and drink.
Turn on the electric mixer...Beat one cup of butter in a large fluffy bowl. Add one teaspoon of sugar. Beat again. At this point it's best to make sure the Cuervo is still OK, try another cup just in case.
Turn off the mixerer thingy. Break 2 leggs and add to the bowl and chuck in the cup of dried fruit. Pick the frigging fruit off floor...
Mix on the turner. If the fried druit gets stuck in the beaterers just pry loose with a drewscriver. Sample the Cuervo to check for tonsisticity.
Next, sift two cups of salt, or something. Who giveshz
a sheet. Check the Jose Cuervo. Now shift the lemon juice and strain your nuts. Add table. Add a spoon of sugar, or somefink. Whatever you can find.
Greash the oven. Turn the cake tin 360 degrees and try not to fall over - Don't forget to beat off the turner.
Finally, throw the bowl out, finish the Cose Juervo and make sure to put the stove in the dishwasher.
this is a rant of nonsense =be warned. you are welcome to ignore it, understand i am venting..... it will surely be very vague and vunerable, so comments be gentle. the pain of loss is real. despair is like being without breath. i am beyond angry now...i fear this anger has grown into a hatred so complete that i will be consumed. i have been attempting forgiveness, if only not to poison myself further. my Self tells my self that i must forgive myself, first. i cannot see how this can be done. but maybe, really, i am not ready to let go of this beautiful disgust. maybe i really do wish for the worst things imaginable to happen to him in my rage. how can i not...even though it is my utter failure that has given him power. i let him in. why didnt we just stay gone. stupid, sensitive, delusional girl with no guts. going through life pretending, not even pretending well, like some trapped spirit in a weak house. pretending there are gods and purpose, until the house falls in again. where is the warrior me. why wont she come. i mean toughen up bitch! i dont want this battle. i want to be a mother, not a fighter. i dont want to carry more questions, the weight of my doubt is too much already. are there any answers for me. i thought children were protected. did he ever know there was a child involved. no, there was only a prize to be had. a perfect christian copy of him. and i am evil. no god comes to help, not even his jesus. and my mother's efforts, she has given everything of herself, what has that amounted to. i was ready to be hopeful, even choose happiness. i was determined. isnt it about time. time for me to create the rest of my life now in serenity, the gorgeous visions i have had. they looked so real. when will i be free to just be me and live life on my own terms. things are backwards and upsides down. what a mess this has become. if you tell me to hang on, i will. if you tell me the goddess IS real, and listening, and loving, and she will help us, and this will all work out, i promise, i will believe you.
Thursday, November 29, 2007, 06:06 PM MST [General]
Greetings Again Beautiful People of Covenspace!
We have snow!, and it has stuck so far. Ive never been much of a winter person, I dont ski or sled, but I am actually happy to see the snow this year, after several very mild winters in this area.
Thanksgiving was nice. It was great to see my family. My sister-in-law made a 24 lb turkey! We gorged ourselves of course, and the Triptophan could have put us all in a coma, hee hee. I was especially thankful this year that I survived the ride out to my in-laws the next day, as my husband's brother's driving makes me fear for my life! He was not paying attention, and a few times drove on the other side of the road. I was about ready to drive myself, and I dont have a license. Whew! But obviously we made it, and did turkey and ham the second time round.
Though my mood today is decent, I have been sick with a nasty cold and running a fever for over a week now, and I am ready to be done with it. Ive missed some work, but cannot afford to miss more. This cold makes it difficult to focus on much of anything and its a tough time of the month anyway, we are out of everything! And the house is a mess (oh well, only boring women have spotless homes, lol).
But I am hopeful. I have many projects I need to be working on (as usual), and events coming that I am looking forward to. But I find myself stuck on some. For instance, I want to redo my biz cards with my new number, a new logo and name...but Im feeling uninspired about the logo and name for my tarot reading biz. Ive sought inspiration in the Tarot itself, hoping that some symbol or word will strike me as fitting. I did get the King of Wands twice, offering his hand and smiling at me. He seems enthusiastic about things. But still, I feel stuck. Maybe I am just not seeing something. Most of my frustration here comes from needing to have the biz cards done before Dec 31st for the First Night Demo where I will be reading. Great opportunity to promote myself, but need current biz cards.
I know also that I will have to prepare carefully for this Demo, meaning I need to properly ground, center, and shield before hand. Plenty of rest, plenty of water, and staying warm as I will be outside for hours. I need to work on keeping readings short, as they are "mini-readings", and I tend to ramble. I need to trust myself, my intuition, my knowledge of the cards, there is no room for second guessing myself, or vagueness. I want to do well, I always try to be very professional with my readings, and I like to think that I am giving the information that the querent needs. But still, I get quite nervous, even a bit intimidated. I am sure I will be fine though, every reading opportunity is a learning experience.
Ive been projecting for a working sewing machine folks, so send some good vibes my way for that pretty please! I know its coming, one way or another (that part is up to the Universe), and hopefully soon because time and my hands dont allow for much handsewing anymore. I could do so much with a working machine!
Still at the poetry writing, just not producing enough as quickly as I would like, but my process with both writing and art I try not to rush, cuz thats certainly not the point. Imagery is important to me these days, some is nonsensical, some definantly self centered and probably depressing, but I dont care, I always tryed to write for myself first.
Sheesh, I still have wreaths and homemade cards to make for Yule. I was hoping to make individualized gift baskets for a few people, but dont know if that is going to happen. The only person I am worried about though is my boy, who is 11 on Dec 28th, and who loves to read. Does anyone have any good book suggestions for an 11 year old? Books and Art Supplies are my ideas right now.
Okay, Peace and Blessings to all you crazy Pagan people out there, have a good one!
My, my...November has been a busy month so far, and seems to be speeding by. My birthday was on the 2nd, and quite honestly, not the happiest. I always seem to feel down around my birthday, lonely and regretful...."what have I done with myself?" kind of questions. Usually, I try to make an effort to gift myself on my birthday, some little way to honor myself. This year I am very poor, but managed to buy some rainbow toe socks, yea for toe socks! So done with the birthday dance until next year, and I am relieved. Now for the commercialized insanity of the holiday season!
Last Friday, I gathered with the gypsies of House Silver Circle (of the Adrian Empire-medieval reenactment group I play frequently with) for a Divination night. We had a good show of folks, and much fun playing and sharing Tarot, Pendulums, Graphology, Palmistry, etc. I gave a few readings, as I am often asked at events to do, and sold a few more of my decks. And I was gifted by our good Abbott Cryspin with a a long wand made of applewood, very sweet of him! We (Silver Circle gypsies) are preparing for doing readings at First Night in downtown Spokane on New Years Eve in a demo for Adria (Archduchy of Alhambra). This is a very large event, and if it is anything like last year, we will be very, very busy. Last year, we had crowds of folks, and I felt more as if I were performing than giving mini-tarot readings. This year I am thankful that we will have a bit of a different set-up, and another reader joining us, and hopefully a helper. We are still looking for some more entertainment, but there is scheduled to be a demo of our combat, and blacksmithing as well. I would love to do some singing, dancing, and drumming, but I have a feeling I probably will be too busy reading. Good advertising though, for both myself and the other readers, and for Adria. Im sure I will be sharing after that event, perhaps even have some pictures. Adria alone keeps me busy, but the folks there have grown to be like family, and I think we all like to have an excuse to get together as often as possible. My Knight Lily has also charged me with making a Talking Stick of sorts for the Alhambra Bardic Guild, but what to top it with?....hmm.
For Thanksgiving, I think we are going over to my brother's house, as my sister-in-law always goes crazy and makes a huge meal. She seems to enjoy it, so mom and I let her go for it, saves us some cooking. Then I suppose I have to do my wifely duty, and go to my parents-in-law the next day for a feast. Im just glad that I have about four days off from work. Eating and sleeping, I think I can handle that. Im going to be getting started on handmaking some cards and gifts this year...the only person I am buying for is my son. Everyone else will be getting homemade things such as small wreaths, personalized gift baskets, cookies, and the like. Thats if I can get my act together anyway. For Yule, I am hoping to volunteer somewhere locally, as I feel I need to repay some of the kindness that has been given to me this past year.
K, well, some babbling for all those who actually read this. I hope everyone has a lovely Thanksgiving!
